Let's just eliminate all the bullshit, shall we?







Thursday, January 28, 2010

UNITED STATES DIVORCES SELF; VISUAL appendix

IT REALLY WOULDN'T TAKE THAT MUCH EFFORT TO
ERASE ALL THOSE LITTLE IMAGINARY LINES AND START
FROM SCRATCH. IT ALL LOOKS THE SAME FROM SPACE.



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NOBODY WAS READY FOR INDIVIDUAL THOUGHT TO
SPRING FORTH WITH SUCH VIGOR! YOU JUST CAN"T
MAKE EVERYBODY HAPPY WITH ONE ANSWER!




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AVOID ALL THE CRAZY HASSLES! START DIVORCING NOW!

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THE PLAN FOR STRAGGLERS AND PROTESTERS:



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THE BACK-ROOM DEALING BEGINS IN EARNEST:



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STATE OF DIS-UNION:


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"Don't cry! Everything gonna be all right, Miss Lady."

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

UNITED STATES DIVORCES SELF: STORY AT 11

Let's just be smart and get it over with, already. Seems it's all over but the shouting anyway.

There is such a deep, unavoidable, unsolvable schism in this country, and that division is continuously growing worse. As the citizens continue to separate themselves into distant camps, there can evidently be no middle ground reached.

So let us all get wise and do what we Americans do best.
(No, not blow shit up and laugh about it. We tried that method a century-and-a-half ago.)
Let's get divorced and split shit up!

We all agree that the problems are not going to be sorted out through an amicable decision-making system. We all know there can be no tolerable compromises reached. So let's quit spinning wheels and work the obvious angle; break off in teams, handle our own stuff, and live or die based on the results.

It can't just be a Democrat/Republican split. There's division amidst groups within the parties. Not all Republicans are conservative (astonishing as that may seem,) and not all liberals are liberal queers.

So if we start getting specific and particular, I imagine we could hold the number of divisions down to about 60..maybe 75 tops. There'd be some concessions, sure. But you have to make room for all the variables;
"Gay Liberals Over 40" (cuz the young gays don't want anything to do with them).... "Conservatives Who Don't Want Children"...... "Spiritual But Not Religious" ......"Religious But Not Spiritual"...... "People Against Welfare"...... "Fiscal Conservatives But Social Moderates" ......"Fans of Twilight"...... "Closet Cases And The Religions That Create & Support Them" ......"Old White Men Who Want To Time Travel Back To 1876"..... and many more. Hmmm. Perhaps we will need more division?

There are the "Conservative Blacks With Money" (oh wait--they can stay in the house behind the "Conservative Whites"--no separate group needed; just separation accepted!)

You'd have "Gun-Free Communities," and communities with barb-wire and bull-dogs posted where people were "Continuously Toting Guns. "

There could be communes for "Anything Goes," where drug use and free sex were allowed without condemnation, and there would be areas of strict control where everything was regulated; "Home Association's Wet Dream."

If you live in a town of people who "Don't Get Up Before Noon And Only Work Half-Days," you just have to deal with the fact that the roads may not be paved and the grocery store may not be stocked.

Folks living in "Old West Country" could blow each others brains out and have their little survival-of-the-fittest pissing contest until there was no one left alive. Clean out that gene pool. People in the "Celibacy and Self Pleasure Group" would be hurting for new members.

Maybe we should just let each state divvy up their populace the way they want. But you better be able to predict what's going to happen; they may decide not to let anyone come or go once the resolutions are in place. You could potentially miss out on a grand placement, or be denied exit from a newly-devised hell-hole.

I'm big on recycling, so no abandoned stuff need go unused, Churches can be made into homeless shelters so they can finally serve the community. Libraries would help the Right Wing stay warm in the winter, with endless kindling. The orphanages could even keep their tenants; Bill O'Reilly needs his nourishment.

But with the state division, you could have all 50 states each individually run, and then each state would determine how many divisions in said state were required, what they should be, and who gets what town/city/county.

But if we do it by national division, it'll be more comprehensive, and some splits are gimmes:
No Liberals want Texas.
No Conservatives want California.
Hey--this isn't so hard, after all!

If we divide shit up and you decide to stay put, don't call out for help when your neighborhood is run by the "Glenn Beck Appreciation Society" and the Blacks are being chained and the Gays are being put in concentration camps. You'll be on your own.

We'll start the process the easy way; divvying up cities and states that both sides agree on, The next step is the trade-off step, wherein each side makes a list of wants and organizes them in sequential order of desirability. Then we can haggle and trade like a football team. The end step is hardest; fighting over who gets the ugly kid that no side wants. (Poor Alabama; looks like they'll be drawing straws for your ass' parental rights.)

So, you gotta figure that Dick Cheney, George Bush, Rush Limbaugh and all the Faux News cronies are going to invest heavily in the major hotel chains, railway travel, car rental, and moving services before the split takes place. Never let it be said that they missed an opportunity to profit off of America being sliced up and sold like a cheap pie.

Let's focus on the easy stuff. The stuff nobody wants.
Who's going to take the prisoners, the sick, the homeless, and other discards of this prosperous nation of wealth and privilege? What difference does it make?
*Nothing's done for the homeless now, so that's moot. It's not like they have to move locations, anyway.
*The prisons are highly profitable, so the Conservatives will want them, and it'll make a good dumping ground for any dissenters or flip-floppers that pop us in their new Utopia.
*The sick might be a problem.
-Do you give them a choice of siding with either the Conservatives, who don't care if they live or die, or the Liberals, who want to care for everybody? They'll all obviously side with the Liberals and storm the gates.
-Do you have the Conservatives take their sick, and the Liberals take theirs? I foresee a lot of

-Do you equally and unceremoniously split up the sick at random, eliminating favoritism and pissing off the sick? (This idea seems best; the sick are accustomed to not getting any say in the matter of their own care and treatment.)

What about young people who are on the cusp? Their parents get to decide for them what group they belong to, but what happens when they run away because they know they are a "Radical Environmentalist Vegan" living in a home of "Cattle Baron Carnivores?" Who decides jurisdiction? Who provides enforcement?

What about kids of parents who are divorced and in soon-to-be separate colonies? Do they even get visitation rights granted? What if one zone allows travel and interaction with outside forces, but the other doesn't?


Who would control the airwaves? "Conservative Not-Really-Christians" hate everything that doesn't reflect their own idealized facade of Perfection; they would want their own t.v. station broadcasting their own tripe...and no other broadcast in their space. They could of course fulfill their goal of having a monitor on every person's TV set so that any unauthorized viewing would be severely penalized. They would also, of course, want to make sure that their broadcast DID reach people who were not interested in seeing it. Funny, that.

(Of course, there would need to be about 3,700 divisions/ghettos within the Not-Really-Christians Order; one for every division that disagrees with the interpretation of The Good Book that the previous one espouses. Too bad most of them missed the gist of the whole tome.)

With this new system, the kinks could be worked out within a few hundred years. Might be a little rough at first, but we could get it rolling. Generations to come could be sitting on their porches, saying to themselves how nice it is to live in a community where everyone thinks the same way.
Where there is no dissension.
Where everyone agrees unanimously on all things at all times.
Where no one has the annoying habit of coming up with new ideas.
Where no one is stuck thinking for themselves.


Aahhhhh, Paradise. We could make it if we tried.

Now, Division of Property! Who's gonna get National Embarrassment, Pat Robertson?

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Many are FAR more eloquent than I.....

Here's an example.

By the group The Fray; "How to Save a Life."


"Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life"

Sunday, January 17, 2010

It ain't over yet. Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. quotes



In remembrance of a brilliant spiritual leader....whose insight has been far too often forgotten. Never forget; the dream is that others would carry on the work, 'cuz the work sure isn't finished.


(Excerpted from various writings and speeches, including "Strength to Love.")

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"Freedom is never voluntarily given by the oppressor; it must be demanded by the oppressed."

"Everybody can be great... because anybody can serve. You don't have to have a college degree to serve. You don't have to make your subject and verb agree to serve. you only need a heart full of grace. a soul generated by love."




"He who passively accepts evil is as much involved in it as he who helps to perpetrate it."

"Almost always, the creative dedicated minority has made the world better."

"Change does not roll in on the wheels of inevitability, but comes through continuous struggle. And so we must straighten our backs and work for our freedom. A man can't ride you unless your back is bent. "




"Every man must decide whether he will walk in the light of creative altruism or in the darkness of destructive selfishness. "


"Everything that we see is a shadow cast by that which we do not see. "



"History will have to record that the greatest tragedy of this period of social transition was not the strident clamor of the bad people, but the appalling silence of the good people. "


"Human progress is neither automatic nor inevitable... Every step toward the goal of justice requires sacrifice, suffering, and struggle; the tireless exertions and passionate concern of dedicated individuals. "



"I believe that unarmed truth and unconditional love will have the final word in reality. This is why right, temporarily defeated, is stronger than evil triumphant. "




"I refuse to accept the view that mankind is so tragically bound to the starless midnight of racism and war that the bright daybreak of peace and brotherhood can never become a reality... I believe that unarmed truth and unconditional love will have the final word. "



"In the End, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends. "




"Life's most persistent and urgent question is, 'What are you doing for others?' "



"Never forget that everything Hitler did in Germany was legal. "




"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter. "




"Rarely do we find men who willingly engage in hard, solid thinking. There is an almost universal quest for easy answers and half-baked solutions. Nothing pains some people more than having to think. "


"Shallow understanding from people of good will is more frustrating than absolute misunderstanding from people of ill will. "



"The first question which the priest and the Levite asked was: 'If I stop to help this man, what will happen to me?' But... the good Samaritan reversed the question: 'If I do not stop to help this man, what will happen to him?' "

"The hottest place in Hell is reserved for those who remain neutral in times of great moral conflict."
"The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy. "




"We may have all come on different ships, but we're in the same boat now. "




"We must accept finite disappointment, but never lose infinite hope. "


"We who in engage in nonviolent direct action are not the creators of tension. We merely bring to the surface the hidden tension that is already alive. "




“Cowardice asks the question, 'Is it safe?' Expediency asks the question, 'Is it politic?' But conscience asks the question, 'Is it right?' And there comes a time when one must take a position that is neither safe, nor politic, nor popular but because conscience tells one it is right.”




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(And a big tip-of-the-hat and "Thank You" to Coretta Scott King, as well!)

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Saturday, January 16, 2010

"Celebrate Recovery" comes to Donalsonville Part 4

Any time you have an organization, no matter how how-minded and noble it is (although clearly that isn't the case here,) it is only as effective and compassionate as the people running it. When you start off with a bunch of right-wing religious nuts wanting to transform the world into their own image.....that's going to be reflected in the program. That's going to seriously limit the level of any service you are able to receive.

Anyone who thinks that a hand-holding prayer session is going to cure deep-seated emotional hurts from a history of sexual abuse is delusional, at best. The same is true for flushing away chemical dependency/abuse by hollering out the name of Baby Jesus. It's fool-hardy. It's dangerous. It's selfish.

Laying out for people only two alternatives is cruel and self-serving. The CB literature promotes that either Jesus heals you, or you stay in a bitter and futile struggle with desperation that will likely end in death. So, by dismissing rational human choice, the mind, treatment facilities, deprivation, abstinence, and all other resources, you are telling people that if they don't believe in God they are hopeless and doomed. Like I said...Tent Revival. Snake-oil religion.

The CB program demand that you apply the "biblical principles of conviction, conversion, surrender, confession, restitution, prayer, quiet time, witnessing..." in order to be successful.

Of course, they also claim they can cure cancer, too.

Hmmm...I missed the memo that no Christians had died of cancer recently. Funny.

Let's take a look at some of this group's "Principles."

#1 "Realize I'm not God..." (But guaranteed, there will be someone over you who is claiming to be a direct link, and to tell you how you need to act in accordance with God!)

# 2 "Earnestly believe that God exists ....and that He has the power to help me recover." ( So, in other words, if you don't recover, and if your desires aren't removed, and if your addiction isn't removed; it's on you. You were weak. Our method did not fail.)

# 3 "Consciously choose to commit all my life and will to Christ's care and control."
(Whatever happens is ordained by the supernatural. The only choice I have that matter sis to give in to that or not. Something outside of my body is ruling me; and the church and pastor dictate exactly what that is. Aw....it's like the army! Break you down, and build you back up the way they want you. A slave to the group think.)

# 4 "...confess my faults to myself, to God, and to someone I trust." (In the church. Who isn't a trained therapist nor in any way capable of dealing with heavy shit. Who has the needs of their own ego and the church's unified interest at heart; not your well being. Did you know the church counsels abused children to stay in the family, since The Family is "Christ's representation of authority on Earth, just as the church is."? Oh yeah.....your interests and needs don't mean squat.)

# 5 "Voluntarily submit to every change God wants to make in my life and humbly ask Him to remove my character defects." (Whew! A loaded one! 'Voluntarily', excepting that we will withhold our love and acceptance from you until you do as we command. And the fact that we have outlined the utter, futile hopelessness of life lived not leading our way. 'God wants;' again, as dictated through the feeble, egotistical, flawed precepts of bitter and petty men. 'Remove my character defects;' as interpreted by same men. We will ignore hypocrisy, cruelty, materialism, controlling natures, gossip, and all other so-called defects that we wish to maintain. And, of course, keep the own defect doozies secret, since being flawed is a part of humanity and everyone suffers from balancing the good and the bad. Unclench!)

# 6 "..Offer forgiveness to those who have hurt me and make amends for harm....." (At first glance, nothing too wrong with these ideas. Except then you remember that this is the church that wants to hide its wrong-doing, and will ask survivors of childhood rape to forgive their assailants. A group which asks gay teens to apologize to their parents for being 'unruly.' And so on. Control through shame and fear and intimidation and get the results you want.)

# 7 summary; Pray, meditate, read Bible; continue to indoctrinate yourself at this point. They've already beaten into you what you have to do to yourself to be free of the vengeful, wrathful, spectre of God the unforgiving.

# 8 "Yield myself to God to be used to bring this Good News to others...." (The final phase; proselytizing. Pushing the spiel on others. Not being open to the world, or change, or knowledge. Keeping blinders on and promoting criticism and despair in those you find in all areas.)

more to follow....

"Celebrate Recovery" comes to Donalsonville Pt 3

Have you ever been to a Baptist church?

Even among the masses of thousands of different takes on God in this country, the Baptists--and in particular the Southern Baptists--are a class unto themselves. They seem to have a zest for accepting their being the most hypocritical, gossipy, back-stabbing, mean-spirited religious zealots around. So by all means, come share all your deep, innermost secrets and shames with these people!

You will notice there is NO promise or claim to ANONYMITY in this group!

In fact, the majority of the crowd on Thursday seemed to be gawkers hoping to spot them a real-life sex-addict. (Or maybe just hoping to get lucky.) Did I mention how sexually-repressed and uptight the Baptists are?

No, in fact, one young 'lady' who's a member of the church and promoter of CB, is known to run down people in town with malicious talk. She used to belong to Narcotics Anonymous and she took personal, private information divulged in that meeting and told everybody in town. So know that going into this cesspool.

And what exactly is the church's position on homosexuality? If it's simply an 'affliction' like any other 'flare-up,' then it is something to be eliminated and despised. That's the church's view, although not publicized. (Might be bad for new recruits.) That's the real life big push behind this seemingly innocuous group.

But that's the Two Faces of the church. The new PR approach is that "Well, we want to help those that are interested in giving up the homosexual lifestyle because they're hurting and lonely." Uh, yeah, brain-dead alert; people are hurting and lonely from morons preaching hellfire and brimstone and sexual repression and intolerance and disgust and dismissiveness and violent disapproval from the pulpit every single week. Your hatred--and it IS hatred--has nothing to do with Love. Nothing to do with Compassion. Nothing to do with The Bible. Nothing to do with Jesus. You're delusional and psychotic.

People can't handle being gay because their families and churches and communities turn their backs on them. Because people act ignorantly and treat poorly and discriminate and condemn.

The trumped up 'Homosexual Agenda' plays on the discomforts of poor, scared, under-educated people --and their own hang-ups about sexuality in general--and gives them the perfect Scapegoat. A new age Bogeyman.

The fear of homosexuality is the best fundraising technique that the Republicans and the church have. Of course they can't stop talking about it! Y'all think about gay sex more often than I do!

All the hungry people, homeless people, abused people, wars, earthquakes, injustice and insanity in the world, and the church uses its resources to......promote more intolerance? You do the math.

By the way, what happened to the youth pastor at this church? I mean, your little Celebrate Recovery says "No more secrets." Put your money where your mouth is; claim your own. Oh, right; if we don't talk about it, then it must not exist.

Here's a hint; most people in the church who want to 'cure' homosexuality are really looking to get their suck on. They want a fellow 'struggler' who will perform acts in secret, and then rely on said shame to keep the actions secret. This is exactly the air of shameful secrecy that creates duality and mental illness and heartache. Your intolerance creates the very problem you point to as reason for being intolerant in the first place. You manufacture stigma.

If sexual orientation is made to be a myth, then your husbands and sons and daddies are not possibly gay. Your daughters and wives are not part of something you have been brainwashed to see as a personification of evil. They are just 'confused.' Like after a night of heavy drinking! Pretend it never happened, ignore your thoughts, push down your feelings, admit nothing, and live in a dream world. Like the rest of the congregation!

If you make it something that can be 'healed' or 'cured' or extracted, then it is a temporary problem that holds a solution. It is then okay to intimidate and scold and blame people for their ideas and actions. It is easier to ignore and excuse your own. People can feel an alleviation of shame that the ideas they have felt were 'not legitimate.'
That's crazy-making.
This is what causes people to become alcoholics and drug addicts.
This is what causes murder-suicides.
This is what causes gay men to marry and then live double lives of misery and pain.
THE CHURCH, and deceptive teachings.
Not sexuality. Not feeling it. Not acting on it.

If people wanted to promote Jesus and what he stood for, so be it. I take a real offense when people degrade the name and intent of the real Jesus with smug and profane disrespect. There is nothing of acceptance and tolerance in these sad, angry, still-lost souls. Your need for 'change' has to do with wanting the world to reflect a human ideal that makes you more comfortable. Less challenged. Less afraid.

The all-encompassing love that Christ taught (regardless of your take on the historicity of the being) is absent indeed from these assemblies. The frightened and violent real tale of the church's retaliatory response to gay people is superficially masked by their whole "We really just want to show those poor souls the love of Christ!" rift. Give me a raving Fred Phelps any day. At least that lunatic bastard is up front.

more to follow....

Friday, January 15, 2010

"Celebrate Recovery" comes to Donalsonville Pt 2

So, as I take a look at the spread of free literature on the table in the hallway, I notice that "Materialism" is one of the evils that 'Christ' can save us from. I do a quick turnaround to inspect the palatial doings of a modest Baptist church in one of the poorest and least employed counties in the state of Georgia (which is saying a lot.) Okay, we have the elevator....the expensive tile....the Jumbo-tronic flat screens.......all of which of course denounce material worship and assist in bringing lost souls great emotional comfort. Gotcha.

There is an entire sheet on explaining Co-dependence, another Habit that CB claims Christ's love can set you free from. Co-dependence being (this is from their handout!):
* The dreams I have for my future are linked to you.
* My good feelings about who I am stem from being loved by you.
* My good feelings about who I am stem from receiving approval from you.
* My social circle diminishes as i involve myself with you.
* My fear of your anger determines what I say or do.
I find it hilarious that a group that demands such strict adherence to their way of doing things--lest you burn eternally in hellfire and be devoid of your loved ones--is opposing such preexisting thoughts! (Yeah, towards other humans, I know; but if codependency exists, the church's job is halfway done!)

The Newcomers sheet promises that working the "Christ-centered steps.....we become free from our addictive, compulsive, and dysfunctional behaviours. This freedom creates peace, serenity, joy, and most importantly, a stronger personal relationship with God and others.

So it's a tent revival. It's a prayer meeting. It's another attempt to build church attendance and raise money. Because, as per usual, it isn't about truly 'helping;' it's about getting everyone to think exactly the same way. They promote it as 'non-denominational', so long as you accept and promote Jesus Christ as the Lord, Savior, yada-yadda ...you know the spiel.

The Newcomer flier goes on to point out what the group is NOT! They are not there to offer any professional clinical advice. Their leaders are not counselors. They will not allow their members to attempt to "fix" one another. ROTFLMAO! Funny how there "aren't" any problems great enough for JC to handle, but legal makes them put those disclaimers in there anyway!

Yes, if you suffer from the real pain and hurt of having been molested, raped, abused by the church (er, maybe not)....it can all be wiped away by JC and this church. But in the event that you are so broken and unworthy, the church never promised to provide the very necessary counseling they disavow. Interesting.

Let's move on to what the group considers itself led to 'assist' with; the Hurts, Habits, and Hang-ups i think they called them. Notice how the line between weaknesses, sins, sufferings, chemical addictions, and thinking automatically blurs.
* Materialism
* Depression
* Divorce
* Alcoholism
* Eating Disorders
* Anger
* Co dependence
* Suicidal thoughts
* Selfishness
and basically just add every 'negative' thing on the planet in the eyes of the church.

Again; basically, the 'cure' for everything is to show up at church and start believing. No treatment center, no therapy, no development of critical thinking. No strength of character. In fact, their first "Principle" in the Road to recovery, as set forth by Rick Warren, is to admit "I am powerless to control my tendency to do the wrong thing and that my life is unmanageable." Uh...really? Whatever happened to free will? To the ability to choose and distinguish between right and wrong? I thought those were pretexts of the church?

(To be fair; I have the same complaints about the 12 step programs, which are anything but secular. You have to admit there that you're a big steaming pile of shit with no value until something outside of you stepped in and made you whole. Whatever.....but that's a rant for another day.)

A separate sheet identifies the following issues (SEXUAL/PHYSICAL/EMOTIONAL ABUSE) as pertaining to the WOMEN'S GROUP.
ERROR! Wrong answer...try again! You just screwed a male survivor up entirely. Let them know that their feelings are invalid. That they must be from another planet if they're a man dealing with such matters. Let them know that this space is not a safe place for them. Teach them to remain silent and repressed and to handle it on their own. GOOD JOB! You're off to a great start!

And I never thought someone could bastardize The Beatitudes, one of the only decent parts of The Judeo-Christian Bible, for my money. But they did. Supposedly, the B's were used as basis for those 8 Principles.....but you could have fooled me.

more to follow......

"Celebrate Recovery" comes to Donalsonville, Pt. 1

I was curious as to what 'assistance' a church would provide with addiction, after having seen a flier at the Post office. So, I decided to investigate Donalsonville's 'Celebrate Recovery' group. (Thursday January 14th.)

The fact that it was being held at the Baptist church should have been the first sign of distress.



The premise of 'C.R.' was known to me, as they are a part of All Mighty Rick warren's crusade to save America from itself. I am ever-aware of the forces that wish to create inequity and division in my country. At the heart of this movement, these folks are concentrated on eliminating homosexuality. But I digress.....
I decided to play a lost soul and be very demure when I entered the sanctuary. I was immediately greeted by a Smile Machine who grabbed my hand and refused to give it back. She demanded to know my name, and when I answered "Robert" she just kept delivering that Stepford Wife vacant smile and asked "Robert what?" (So much for this group's anonymity--but more on that in a minute.)

I gave my last name, and repeated it several times (it really isn't that difficult) and finally she says "I'll just call you 'Robert.'" I was pointed in the direction of the food spread. And as you well know, whether you're from the South or just know Southerners, not a single mother plucker passed that didn't ask if I knew there were sandwiches up there, and hadn't I ought to go get one, and didn't I need some food.
I sat by myself, lest I be accused of trying to recruit the young people that were there (and there were some very young people there; completely inappropriate for the type of meeting that was about to take place.) There were a bunch of sad and angry looking people, and they were all atwitter because most did not know me. (Again, in the South, not being known equates to being an axe-murdering sociopath.)

A girl I know somewhat (in passing) moved closer to me and spoke, so i approached her further and spoke with her a few minutes. I looked up and saw a flurry of activity in the kitchen, liken to something from a Charlie Chan movie, as the hens were clucking about the lady (we'll call her "A.P.") sitting unchaperoned with That Man. Finally they got a Man of God's attention and sent him out to intervene, lest the unthinkable happen.



(A side note; not only is it pretty damned clear to even blind children and deaf dogs that I'm as queer as a $3 bill, there was nothing remotely amorous about our conversation. But here in the Bible Belt, the Great Lie is that homosexuals--for all intents and purposes--do not exist.


There are a select handful of evil agents of Satan positioned in the twin cities of Hollywood (Sodom) and San Francisco (Gomorrah,) but no others truly exist.



Mostly, there are only good, godly, heterosexual men and women who are tempted into corrupt thoughts and actions --which they would otherwise never in a bazillion years possess--by the 'actual' homosexuals.



Also, in case you missed The Gay Agenda, or The 700 Club's latest nutso diatribe, homosexuals do not live in small towns, act masculine, speak without a lisp, or wear men's clothing. End of educational preamble.)


As I joke about her white knight swooping in to rescue her, this girl gets a little flustered and nervous and says" I'm not worried. You know I'm married. You know my husband."

Jaw drops. Table shatters.

She goes on to tell me the normal bit; How she never had a family until she came to this church. How she feels loved for the first time in her life. The usual blissful stuff. And, hey, I am not about knocking what works for other people; as we used to say back in the day, "Whatever gets you through the night." Unfortunately, the church doesn't reciprocate those well wishes. It is not a "live and let live" world for them.

I am very reluctant to try and wrest faith or belief from anyone, regardless of how misguided I feel they are. We all just want to feel loved and safe. Life, by it's very nature, is neither, and that proves too much for most of us to handle. Thus, religion. Fill that void! And, in this case, fill that void in order to take the place of the other things you formerly used to fill the void! How ironic.

This isn't just "Jesus is sweet" and "I love my neighbor" sing-a-longs. This is hardcore, adamant shove-it-down-your-throat fanaticism that in no way even lets the possibility of being incorrect into the room. This is politically minded, self-righteous, holier-than-thou cult worship. And that's where the problem begins.

(more to follow)....

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A fanatic is one who can't change his mind and won't change the subject. -Winston Churchill

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

HOOKER RESURGENCE

A MODEST PROPOSAL:
"A HAND JOB FOR A HAMBURGER...

(TOO BAD THEY CAN'T BOTH BE 'WHOPPERS.')"

Firmly ensconced in the realities of economic hardships, I have developed a survival plan for we on the bottom rung. The plan is foolproof in nature, with nothing but benefits for all involved.

This document lays out (tee hee!) the order of the day as needed.
Point:

One thing always in demand is sex. To be blunt, most men and a few women are not even discriminatory enough to demand it be 'good' sex, or be experienced enough to know the difference. As the saying goes, "It's all good in the dark."

(For men in particular, any tight, wet, warm spot will do.)

If you follow the crazy religious people, hard times (tee hee) increase the demand for sexual outlets as people attempt to find comfort through addictive behaviors. As stress increases, the desire to find 'crutches' (we used to just call it being horny) increases.

Every one's needs are different anyway, so look at it like this; if you aren't any good, you'll get on-the-job training and direction. (Also, this might be a good time to explain the importance of money exchanging hands up front!)

Don't be tense; every 'legit' job entails a large quantity of horrifically demanding tasks that you aren't getting compensated for;
* Being bent over a desk
* Being dicked over
* Being pissed on and shat upon daily
* Being screwed with no dinner, no date, no lube
* Eating out the bosses ass
* Feeling empty and used after it's all over
So what's your hang-up? It's all good! You might as well make a little more for it!

Benefits:


* You get plenty of exercise and stretching as part of your new job.

* You get to spend much of the day laying in bed.

* Scheduling conflicts are eliminated by combining sex and income-earning.

* A lack of business wardrobe is not a concern.

* There need be no fear that you will get screwed at your job each day.

* Intelligent conversation is not required.

* Your performance at your last job is irrelevant.

* Your Comparative Lit degree is no longer a source of embarrassment at job interviews.

* No taxes!

* No annoying paperwork.

* Your boss' performance review is irrelevant in 20 minutes.

* Standards are not that high.

* If they aren't into safe sex, they aren't into you.

* No long waits for time off or vacation.

* Your date doesn't find out where you live.

Plus the social positives provided by responsible, intelligent sex service workers are innumerable.

- Help keep a marriage together by giving a husband a safe bitch-free zone for an hour.

- Keep those unwanted pregnancies to a minimum.

- Release that energy in a good way; keep those murder rates down.

- Better out than in!

- Overcome those nasty religious hangups about sex.

- Keep the economy thriving! Provide a real stimulus package!



Happy Trails; it's a living. There's gotta be some way to make one.


Monday, January 11, 2010

"The 'God' Thang" miscellaney part 7

34.
There is room at the table for all interpretations of God; one person's notion does not discredit or 'disprove' another's. It all ties in together; varying aspects of the same whole.

The brilliance of God is such that everything is possible.

I enjoyed a story someone shared about the blind men and the elephant; The men were all feeling different parts of the elephant's anatomy and coming up with different experiences to show for their tactile insights. They argued over who was right, as if an absolute was to be maintained.

But they were all correct; there was no need to introduce debate or bristle at the unknown.

(Don't ask your pastor or priest about all this; ask God. Look within.)



35.
Don't throw the baby out with the bath water!

Just because organized religion and the established churches have distorted the message, don't assume that there isn't a God withing the message!

The simplest, purest, blessed parts of all religions (The Beatitudes, The Seven Spiritual Principles, etc.) hold true and universal.

By taking the established and decorated aspects of God's love and mangling them with the dictates of the church and man added on, people have screwed every one's perception of Love up royally.

There then becomes so much confusion and incompatibility and nonsense, that people are turned off and dispense with the whole of religion (leaving the spirituality behind as well.)

That's what the architects want; If you assume that the only way to a wondrous afterlife (or to get the answers you seek here) is by being a member of one of the 'ordained' groups with their 'holy message' and 'key to God's love,' then you will continue to support the church and bring their income and glory.

To live apart is to risk condemnation, isolation, rejection, slander, and more; but it is NOT to risk those things from God--only man.

36.
The obvious answer is usually the right one.

Most world religions maintain many similarities, but choose to ignore that in favor of differences.
The same hostile, xenophobic, limited view of other peoples and beliefs that permeates the Judeo-Christian Bible is implicit in the Code of Hammurabi and the Koran; yet they all consider themselves superior to one another in culture and mind!

On the positive side, Taoism, Buddhism, and Confucianism all have similarly uplifting and inclusive positivity-based beliefs. They don't spend time worrying about business cards and televangelism.

37.
If the touching of genitals is consensual and between adults, it is no one else's business!


38.
If we are happy with our selves, we have no need to find fault with others.
If we are being our best selves, we have no time to try and control others.
If we are being true to God, we do not need to speak of others and their actions.

Speak truth.
Act nobly.
Focus on self.
Give freely.

All else will care for itself.


39.
I trust very little, but a wise friend told me;
"Put your arms out, let go, and fall back....trusting that you will be caught.
Sometimes you just have to be willing to try faith."

That's a huge leap of faith. It's definitely easier said than done. But this deceptively simple act
can work in accordance with any belief system, once you get to the point of accepting. That journey to accepting that old ways are no longer working may take a while. The act of falling may take a lot of practice. Heck, easy things take practice; how many times should it take before you get the art of 'giving in' down pat? (Notice; giving in...not giving up.)



Whatever your beliefs, there is something to find hope with; life itself. Whatever will be, will be; trusting in the flow of life to put you where you need to be and to have what you need to have.
Not that circumstances will be ideal or what you anticipated; that's the whole point.

Letting go and releasing expectation and worry means giving in to life itself; recognizing the limits of man's ability to affect much on the planet. We cease struggling and we surrender to our lacking, and it is finally okay.

Whether you know it's Jesus, your own connection to love, other people, Buddha, God, Muhammad, Allah, Nature, the Universe, or Fate, you can relinquish control and find peace.

"The 'God' Thang" miscellaney part six

29.

Where the mind goes, matter follows.

Science and spirituality are not opposite forces; quantum physics validates most spiritual precepts (a soul has mass, energy transforms but doesn't dissipate, etc.)

When we determine that a thing is so, all else (mind, body, etc) falls in place to back up that belief. Any body's religion can work if the dogged belief is inherent enough that the body manifests whatever it wills into existence.

So, for all intents and purposes, prayer does work;

*The power of suggestion.

*The power of positive thinking.

*The power of manifest destiny.


Conversely, if you have been corrupted to believe that you are a horrible sinner who will suffer for your sinfulness, then you will suffer.

Science shows that withheld emotions and pain leads to illness and disease in the body. It's all linked. "Intention forms the universe."


30.

All good acts fall under God's mighty presence of Love. God is not in the drama or the details of a specific road to salvation; theologians and disciples and honoraries make God giggle.


If someone is arguing about what the true path of attaining enlightenment is, then they aren't on it. There is no hassling or sweating or nit-picking in God's world; the ultimate peace will not be 'smiting' any babies or children or old African women who were isolated from the "one true way."


'Correct thinking' and 'righteousness' are fallacies of man designed to instill hubris and a false superiority in one's own choice or group. There is always truth in the world to be discovered; no one person or book or group has it.


To think otherwise is the height of audacity and ego. To suggest God's design on one's own effort is equally insane. It is not a matter of "Us Versus Them." That is the great lie.


31.
Religion pushes man's agenda, not God's.

The purpose of religion has always been to control and de-power mankind. It has been a tool of government, the ruling class, and others who seek to control and influence the world's people and events. God's will is hardly ever sought in the hierarchy of a church.

This doesn't mean that good people do not attend or run churches. That good sermons cannot exist. That some aspect of God's Love isn't present in a congregation.

But the truth-- the genuine spirit--is eclipsed by the spectacle and ritual and distraction of man's pomp and circumstance.

Buttoned-down and emotionless sleep-inducing recitation....or high-octane fire and brimstone revival; it all boiled down to a departure from the nurturing free spirit of absolute love.

Condemning those in or outside the church? God has now left the premises.


32.
How can faith heal? Is it absolute? Does it work every time? For every one?

We have a personal responsibility to pursue our best selves; to pursue a full life at all costs.
The path may be littered with difficulties, and each person's demons may differ in size or shape or severity.

Pain is also relative, since everyone has a different threshold and a different need from life. We cannot assume what someone's struggle has been, nor what path is best for them.

We can only encourage and support, and be attuned to the rhythm and flow of life.
We do not control events; only our responses to them....but that is the key to happiness.

Seeking oneness with the universe does not mean accepting horrible circumstances and being apathetic. Defending one's self, working towards a goal, and working hard are all reflections of love for life and God's love.

'Good' things happen...
'bad' things happen.....
it is a constant of life. There is nothing personal about it. In looking, we often find that we may actually have a hand in the level of difficulties we continue to suffer.




33.
We can change our lives at any point by only first believing it possible.

The mind is our most powerful weapon, and it can be used for good or for ill. Our focus dictates what we do, think, and say.

If we have a message playing in our brain that tells us we are unworthy, and we listen to it without countering the message, we form an agreement with that old message.

If we have a habit of assigning blame to other people for our circumstances, then we neglect out own innate ability to transform our lives.

If we keep people at a distance by finding problems or quirks of theirs we cannot abide, we are setting ourselves up for isolation and despair.

None of these messages are real simply because they have been repeated thousands of time; but we can view them as tangible realities nonetheless. We must stop listening to the madness of the lies that separate us. This includes the doctrines of the church which make us cut away from the rest of the world based on religious differences.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

"The 'God' Thang" miscellaney, part 5

20.
The Creator of Life, the Great Giver, would not want its blessed children to be doubting, negative, blaming, self-deprecating, self-hating, fearful, worrisome, or isolated. All those things come from being distant from God. This most often occurs when man's erroneous idea and image of who or what God is corrupts the original intuitive understanding of God's essence.
Man does not speak for God; man's demand for uniformity and rigidity is not God's.


21.
God is all goodness of the world, big or small, manifested. A smile, a thank you, an apology, a card, listening, assistance, friendship, attempting new things, a hug, volunteerism, donating food and clothing, giving rides, donating blood, standing tall against oppression and injustice, defending the weak, and more.

None of these things are promised or guaranteed; they are blessings of the universe at the mercy of human whim. It is only through striving to impart God through ourselves as tool or vessel that we manifest such acts.

God is also a message of hope sent in ways big and small; happy 'coincidences,' special dreams, a friend at the right moment, providence, a perfect song, a beautiful sunset, a well-timed check, a friendly face or remark, a friend warning us of our perils, a bird that flies down at the right moment, a warm remembrance of lost loved ones, a nearly missed accident, a guiding hand, the funny feeling that protects us, and much more.



22.
'Evil' is merely a word to describe the temporary condition of man getting away from God's love, being blocked or closed to its power. We can all allow the light to be blocked at any moment in time by giving in to pettiness, hurt feelings, selfishness, abandonment, bruised ego, allowing ourselves to feel undervalued, ego, resentments, and more.

Evil is actually a judgment that serves to further distance one child of God from another. What frightens us most is the understanding that the capacity for goodness and darkness exist equally within all people; it is only circumstance that determines how we are developed.

But the greatness of the light of love is that we can change course at any point when the ability of love is made known to us. It is transformative. It in inclusive. It is possibility. No person need be separated from god.


23.
Religion and competitive jurisdictional condemnations selectively determining which people 'are' or 'are not' worthy of god's love are products of man.
Man's ignorance, man's blasphemy, man's self importance.

Man has copyrighted religion and hijacked the word God from the good people in the world. Spirituality and love have been bastardized as horrors are committed in the name of God.

Religion is an act of darkness, devils, and demons; causing half the world to incorrectly conceive God while the other half is kept from the real creation, reviling and rejecting the false image created by the worst fears and prejudices of man.


24.
God is connecting to higher consciousness and eliminating lower consciousness.
God is Possibility, Hope, Opportunity, Openness, Freedom, Acceptance, Love of ALL people (NO exceptions), Honesty, Willingness to change, and Life.

God is the process of life; up and down and all around. The journey, the struggle, the choosing.

God is avoiding the spiritual bankruptcy of distractions and deceptions like low self-worth, depression, giving up, suicide, mean thoughts, vendettas, prolonged grief, blame, or any thoughts that bring anger and sadness. These things occur; we must be careful not to allow them to develop into a way of life.


25.
God's idea of man is far superior to the actual being.
Man's idea of God is far inferior to the actual being.


26.
The best way to lose God is to build a building to house it. Religion is man's slanderous accounting of God's beauty and promise.

Most agnostics and atheists reject even the notion of God based on what humans have falsely promoted as god; they may actually be closer to the love of the world than self-professed Godly or holy people.

Organized religion is nothing more than grown children arguing over whose God is faster, smarter, more authentic, prettier, more powerful, and more blessed.

God is Love. Period.
God isn't concerned about judgment, criticism, hate, vengeful, or demanding natures. Any place those things exist, God is spurned.

Even if God were concerned with superiority; it's God's business. it isn't man's to speak or act upon.

27.
If you believe in God, show it through actions. No one needs to know what your mythology is; what hoops they have to jump through to achieve your version of peace. Give the love of God if you have it; don't attach strings and expectations. That's not God.

Stand outside a liquor store and tell strangers and neighbors that "God loves you." That's all. That's an act of courage. It's not a condemnation. It isn't interrogating them. It isn't forcing beliefs and stringent rules and regulations; it's expressing hope and love.

The message is love. you either live it or you don't; that's the choice. Let all the rest go.



28.
Doubting man's ability to comprehend god and doubting God are two radically different and disconnected notions.

I have known Wiccans and atheists with more concern and compassion for their fellow man than most self-proclaimed Christians; I will take the understanding of that lesson to allow growth of my mind, and accept that love is everywhere and all paths can have hope and promise. There are many ways leading in the same direction. I don't wish to be bogged down in semantics.

I refuse to apply my needs to other people. I accept them for what and where they are.

I refuse to have my notion of a supreme creation confined to mankind's limited, corrupted, insignificant interpretation

Labels are for boxes, not omnipotent beings of awesome kindness.

"The 'God' Thang" miscellaney, part 4

15.
God is not political, nor does it require followers to be.

God is about living one's own life in the best possible way, caring for self and worrying about one's own messes. That is connecting to God.

When others hurt, we give support to them. Period. No demands of accepting our belief system; giving without concern for a return. Giving without expectation.

God is not ritual, or memorization, or demanding or criticizing. Love is a process, not procedure.
God is acceptance, not assuredness.

Letting go of precepts and stricture and rigidity is finding God.



16.
God is the Collective Consciousness, Humanity, Goodness, and all things where love is manifest.
All things and all man are God.

God is unconcerned by titles and religious dogma or precepts or group think.

God loves a liver of life who follows their path to creativity and expression and blessings.

Whenever we act to embrace life--so long as we do not harm another--we are living God's will.

When the focus is on ourselves, choosing how we can be calm and centered, the rest of the world falls into place. We are not required to plan, determine, guide, correct, obsess over, complain about, or be distracted by what other people do.

There is no part of God in interfering with the flow of life.


17.
To see God we must seek it, breathe it, live it, call it, build upon it, surround ourselves with it, remember it, claim it, act in it, believe in it, ask for it, work for it, rededicate ourselves to it, and manifest it.

We must be open to what we can do, not what we have done or are tempted to do that separates us from God. The past does not dictate the future. Pain is not a life sentence.

God can be a part of our lives no matter how blocked we are from understanding or accepting it due to a pattern of pain, hurt, contempt, resentment, anger, abuse, failure, dashed hopes, diminished expectations, or whatever other obstacle we can dream up.


18.

God is not to be boxed and diminished by human comprehension. It's like trying to put a rainbow in a Ziploc; there's just no means of doing it.

Everything wonderful and magical about God is expressed in its free working in the universe. Just as we cannot posses a person or control love, when we try to restrict God, it disappears from the equation.

Motives are important. Love exists when we give it freely from a generous heart. We cannot give the illusion of love for the sake of wanting a return on our investment. If we seek acceptance while neediness and emptiness are at the heart of our struggle, we are swimming against the tide.

In surrender, we learn how to let the world be how it is, and choose to give love due to rightness.
It is a process...a journey....it takes commitment and time. It is worth the work.



19.
Nothing in the universe that is negative is directed at us; we cannot take things personally.

The lack of love in another person is their lost nature, not a reflection of you. A rejection of your efforts is a defensive resistance; not a personal assault.

Love is a life choice; a decision not to be entered into lightly. We must think long and hard and be truly dedicated before taking on the task. We will likely feel defeated and want to give up; we must remember that God is within us, around us, and throughout all creation. It is awaiting us.

The world will respond in kind when we promote the higher principles of love and leave our human arrogance and elitism and so-called 'standards' at the door.

Everyone is welcome at the table with God. Different thoughts, different abilities, different bodies.....it is all beautiful.

"The 'God' Thang" miscellaney, part 3

11.
God is not violent or war-like or angry or condemning or unforgiving.
It does not take sides in wars; God mourns all loss of life.

The basis of love is that it does not need to justify itself or rule or infringe upon
others. All things can occur simultaneously. There is no room at the table for all
persons to be correct, but there is plenty of room for all persons to be respectful.

Love is right. Judgment is wrong. God does not need man to take any human to task,
or take up authority, or assume righteousness or assume superiority in God's name. Such actions are as far from God as one can get.


12.
God has no use for religion. God is love in action, not an exclusive select group. It is not located in a building. It is not requiring funds and donations and guilt and fear and loathing.

God sees us all equally as one; loving unconditionally and supporting fully. The closer we come to acting like God, the more we see God in our lives, but God is not absent from our lives even when we act cruelly, selfishly, or with intent to harm.

We are closer to God when we are close to one another. To care for another is to care for God.
It is a means of expressing God's gift of love, attaining a higher plane of existence, and fulfilling our purpose. Life is all about loving one another.


13.
Negativity, pain, struggle, despair, effort, and heartache are part of the lessons of life no matter how elevated we are. With greater diligence to higher goals, we can better respond to and overcome such adversities. But they are an aspect of the ebb and flow of life.

It may take time to leave the past behind and heal from prior hurts, but we can come to see our strength in creating a new, blessed, better life slowly but surely.

Our intentions form the world within us, and around us. Connecting to the light is possible for everyone. The first step is accepting that possibility. How we react to what goes on in life is the biggest battle we face; far more significant than the actual tribulations themselves. Becoming closer to God is possible for every man and woman; no exceptions.

Let no man take from you what God has promised.

God is not absent in life as a result of difficulty; God is present in spite of it.



14.
Change your mind,
change your choices,
change your life.

The opportunities and possibilities are around us every day. It is believing that fact to be untrue that keeps us disconnected from love.

It is an aversion to higher self based on the hypocrisy of those who misuse the name God.

Negativity is the result of assuming that the majority or the mighty or the mouthy have a claim to the universe more than the rest of us.

"The 'God' Thang" miscellaney, part 2

7.
How can God be a benevolent creator of life and light and hope....and still be connected to
condemnation and hurt and dismissal?
The answer is, He/She/It isn't.
Man condemns.
Man kills.
Man withholds love.
Man has ego.
Man justifies and rationalizes and criticizes.
God has bigger and better things to worry about.



8.
We live what we believe. Belief causes thought to be manifest.
If we choose to tie in to the existing belief system of 'what God is' and 'how God thinks' then we are adopting a belief system that is flawed and harmful.

(Assuming that a book is the ordained teaching of a divine being is simply buying one more lie of man. Just because a lie has been successfully perpetrated and existed for 100s or 1000s of years does not make it legitimate. )

Religion is dominant...not necessarily correct.
Habit makes us married to the notion of a thing's legitimacy.


9.
God is not about skin color, dogma, names, sects, level of church attendance, education level, sexuality, sex, hygiene, income level, or any other thing consuming the mind of man.

God is not identified by a male or female pronoun...
is not the property of any one religion....
is not confined within isolated, confining, limited comprehensions of man.......

God is in all places at all times, including but not limited to the Buddha, the Lord, Allah, Shiva, Enlightenment, the Universe, Mother earth, the Goddess, the Great Spirit, Yahweh, and all others. It is the best of all things.


10.
God is manifest in all of us. ALL of us. It is goodness and hope and kindness. It is overlooking wrath, quieting fears, and giving freely. God is love. God is opening a door for another or bringing a hot coffee to a homeless person. It is keeping silent rather than criticizing and judging another.

It is speaking up for kindness and grace when others gossip. It is available to us at any time with but a decision; it works in and around and through us in every good thing we do.

Therefore we connect with God in seeing the good--or capacity for good--in others. In accepting where others are and how others are...with no strings attached.

"The 'God' Thang" miscellaney, part one

1.

The idea of God's love can build bonds and cure illness....
The idea of God's disapproval can break hearts and ruin lives....
Only man dispenses the idea of God's disapproval;
God only sends out love.



2.
God is not concerned with man's reluctance to understand and embrace true love.
God is readily available and visible at whatever time man wishes or becomes ready to see.
Man places demands on how God's love shines and when and where it 'can' exist.
God IS in all places at all times, waiting for us to connect and allow love in.


3.
God is the essence of all higher planes of existence;
Forgiveness, mercy, blessings, love, acceptance, creativity, thinking, goodness, and more.
There is nothing in God that is angry, judgmental, petty, vengeful, demanding, cruel, abusive, flawed, threatening, egocentric, or dark. Those are all attributes of man, viewing God through man's own limited and harsh mind.



4.
When it comes to the spirit of life and love; question what you 'know' and follow what you feel.
Intuition pushes us towards acceptance and mercy; fear blocks us from acting on it. Our scared human psyches wish to conform to the surrounding negativity of man and organized deceit of God's will. Being open to God's love, not concerning ourselves with others, is brave and bold, and takes seeking a higher calling and leaving our old selves behind.


5.
Man wants to create God in his image but
God created man in its image. This is not a condemnation; we have grown far from what the true purpose of man is.

6
'Made in God's image' gives us the capacity--but not the automatic achievement--
of a live filled with mercy and tenderness. We focus on the problems, not the possibilities, and therefore wish to see God as limited and hateful so that we feel better about giving in to our natural weak tendencies to do the same. Achieving true love and enlightenment is tough, dedicated work. It is not a given.

"The 'God' Thang" Introduction

So, for almost 4 decades now I've been struggling with the concept of God.

It seems obvious, now, but the reality is that I have been struggling with the super-imposed notion of God that other people and institutions have burdened upon me.
It is with great humility that I admit my own foolishness in accepting as fact the insanity of man's interpretation of a might essence of love.

My skin still crawls at the mention of God. I feel ill when I pass churches or hear people say God's name. (Not--as the misinformed would offer--because I am without God and am a 'bad' person....but rather because the idea and name of God has been misrepresented and abused by so many wounded, confused, arrogant, vicious, judgmental, scared human beings.)

There's no small amount of frustration at having allowed myself to be bereft of ultimate love and kindness due to the bastardization of the universe's love at the hands of man.

But, being in a better place now, emotionally--mentally--physically--spiritually, I wish to sidestep blame and resentments and simply bask in what I now see as blessings.

The journey took what it took.
It is what it is.
It's all good.

I have been reevaluating a lot recently. Rather than make a sequential timeline or an involved philosophical argument for my changing heart and mind, I figured I would throw out some random understandings by which I have made peace.

It should become obvious right off that My God is a complete rejection of the archaic patriarchal hateful god of vengeance and small minds. Proceed at your own risk.

I think it's high time the rest of the world got a shot at reclaiming the name God for a loving soulful creative force of blessings; this right was stolen from us long ago.

As always, "Take what you like and leave the rest!"

I pray we can all learn to truly open our minds and our hearts to what the rest of the world has to offer.

The worst thing ever to happen to the love of the universe was for religion and man to get hold of it. If you struggle with reconciling the idea of love and beauty with the God preached by so many in the world today.....

if you feel like God is only a name most people use to promote their own ego and sense of self, having lost all connection to reality....

if you are alone and wounded and cast aside by organized religion and the horribly abusive judgment that can only come from man.....

then follow with me and take a trip. Let's see what else is out there waiting for us.

Let's not remain shackled to the limitations of our fellow misguided humans, attempting to assign the disparity of spirit man exhibits onto the divine.

I am a student of love.
I am a student of truth.
I am a student of life.

Let's explore what greatness comes from connecting and searching for what is outside of our minds.....and question the lies that have pervaded our world for so long.

.....more to follow......